Sunday, September 22, 2013

回忆





scroll 回了insta 的照片,看见了我们第一次见面的照片,那个日子,虽然不算是我们认识的那天,但是,我还蛮庆幸,我有把它记录下来。
不知不觉,发现自己喜欢的东西,有着你的影子,戏剧,球队,音乐。喜欢的东西,从来就不可能没有原因。
时间过了那么久,有时候,我会回想,自己是否做错了决定。是否当时就不应该放手,不理自己那所谓的标准,真真实实的,忠诚于感觉。
但是,并没有,还是放手了。现在,并不是我想要的,但过去做了决定,造就了今天的结局,不能说后悔。曾经很真实,仿佛就在眼前,转眼间都不在了。曾经想过,如果重来,结局或许不是这样。回想一切,还是会珍惜。
或许你变了,我们都变了,虽然我还在学习,但我会努力的。或许,这一切都只是我想得多,也或许是你脚步太慢,我们步伐都不一样,这段路走不下去。
现在的每一次碰面,虽然心里偶尔会紧张,但表面必须淡定,你偶尔可能会以为我冷漠,但是,你不知道,冷漠底下,有一个快承受不住的我。有些习惯,想改也需要时间。不舍,但就让时间把一切都带走吧。可能,过不久就不能常见面,但以后,过了很久,希望我们再见面,还能从容谈话。
你,要继续开心生活,谢谢你。

Sunday, June 2, 2013

It's just another boring Sunday. Being independent.

Its another Sunday, been listening to the same youtube music video for the past days, if you wonder, its 'TOMORROWLAND2012 after movie'  if you ever bother to read my previous posts you'd probably know how much i love their music. I love their remix , definitely a combination of few of my favourites *ehehehe. 

Okay, tomorrowland is definitely in one of my to-do-list.
Then i realised i have been repeating it over and over again for too many times so i think i should make a switch. SO, this will do.

From house to pop songs. i love this song, it is just so addictive.........OKAY, basically this post is just a random one and i just want to tell you i love this song. *heahah,dontyourealiseitsalyricvideo? i purposely find a lyric bideo so that you can sing along! *LOL. 
So, boring sunday, second day of June. Three weeks away from finals, 20 days from finals. damn assignments due, how can i study when there're still loads of assignment piling up?! -.- . phweeewh, hwaiting hwaiting!
Dear June, please treat me well and best of luck in exams. May those whom i love and love me have a great month.
OWH, btw, i started consuming BOH greentea, no idea if it will be as good as other brand but thats the only packet i can find in the supermarket. 50 packets, owhhh, long way to go.
So gonna be nerd for the coming weeks.... still Goodluck everyone! ;)

Friday, May 10, 2013

Random Friday

Uhh.....its Friday again. Its one month away from my finals, and i am still not ready yet for it. I know, you won't go far if you didn't put in as much effort as you want to succeed.
I am recently madly in love with 'We got married' .  Love the international version, but i love Khuntoria too! they look cute tgt, especially Nickhun who is beyond perfect *fanmode* LOL
Anyways, hows ya day? i am reheating lunch my mom prepared afterwards. gonna hwait for my finals ! AZA hwaiting!
p/s: listening to korea drama ost ryte now, and i always go emo whenever i listen to it, *dammit.


Sunday, April 14, 2013

Grow old with you.*not?


*no doubt westlife is still have the best records*
First thing first, i just wanna say that i am gonna redecorate this page soon, and also, change the name of this blogspot. Well, if you ever wonder how i came across with 'secretllena' this name, its simply out of random. i just wanna rhyme it with one of the nicknames i had. But sooner or later, i am just gonna change it to the name that somehow i think its more related to me. STAY TUNED!

SOOOO, 'Grow old with you'.. i got this idea when i was listening to one of Westlife's song --'I wanna grow old with you'. Recently,random people around me have been asking me this-- ' why dont you have a bf yet? ' I have to say it annoys me allot. yeah, ALLOT! i mean, you asked me something i cant really answer and what's the point of asking? It's not like because of your word i am gonna bump into one the next day. It seldom happens and definitely there's a difference between fairytales and reality. Sometimes i thought i finally found one, however, things just didn't get to turn out as i thought. Don't you think sometimes it seemed like a joke?Things sometimes just don't happen as what you expect.
To be able to find someone you love, and love you back is just simply sweet and blessed. Growing old with someone that you were meant to be is truly a blessing.
I believed some of you have been through the stages where you stay up late just to talk to him/her, get all dressed up for him/her, making him/her lunchbox/desserts, or even do something you will never do just because he/she's the reason for you to do so. Those were the little things and bits that you will never forget.

Well, sometimes things might be kindof hard like--- long distance relationship. I have some examples around me, which i truly have to give them a *thumbsup*. Seriously, that kind of suffer; the moment when they are not beside you when you needed them most, the moment when they are not there when you want to share the joy with them, the moment when you find no shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold on when you are down. Honestly, i have never been through this, but i wonder will i be able to go through all these painful stage. However, i believe that if he is your true love, the one you cherish the most, no matter where or how far the distance is, things will eventually work out. That's simply the amazing ending where all the LDR couple hope for. *havefaith*

Ya know, there was once me and one of my bff was chit-chattin, and she sighed and looked at me,' well probably he is still using gps and on his way' LOLL *cutelol* No worries lah, i always believe that God have his own plan , if it was yours, it will be yours. You can't look into the future, but all you can do is to appreciate what you have. Cause whether you love or not, nothing last forever.There will be sparks when you are with the right person at the right timing and in the right place.

So to my dear Mr.right, may you have your GPS set to the right route and i hope you won't get lost. *ahaha*

p/s: i have been watching the walking dead for the past days and so sad! MERLE turned into the walking dead, he was one of the toughest character out of all, feel sad for DARYL especially seeing him crying :'( *random enough?* Anyways, have a good day ahead everyone! thanks for reading and the next blogpost will be up in a few days and topic is yet to be reveal ❤ buhbye for now!




Thursday, March 7, 2013

What are you thinking?

Well well well, hello long lost friend, it has been for nearly half a year since i last update. I was just simply being lazy *yeahryte -.-*
So i know i have lots of post to catch up, but ryte naw , with half my soul asleep, i just wanna keep things update a little.
New sem just started recently,  I should have well use my hols but in the end, i did nothing.I have been facing allot of problems on future career topics recently. I doubt i can even answer it when someone ask me naw. Yes, i was once very clear on my pathway but now i am just lost and miserable. I didnt know what i want, or imagine how would i be like in few years time. *thissoundsfailryte?trustmeiknow*
Being a second year student and yet to be graduate in two years time, i know its time for me to set myself a future. I love freedom, i love to travel. I always thought that human beings should see how beautiful the world is before leaving to another dimension. We know we can never predict or foresee what was about to come.


You know what?
A worked hard for his whole life, saved a whole lots of money, had himself a goal of retiring at the age of 50, then he planned to travel after his retirement. This was what he planned, however in real life, he might be diagnosed with cancer, or even involved in an accident and might just leave like that. All his plans were gone. GONE
But then, B thought that he should stick to the YOLO rules, he didnt tie himself with a mortgage loan or even car loan, he traveled all around the world, spent all his penny on travelling and end up looking at his mates owning cars and houses, earning big bucks, travel around the world staying at the finest hotel, which he couldnt afford.

Well,  you cant say B is stupid because he didnt invest his money properly to generate more money. He spent it all on travelling and probably thought that it was worth it.
For A, the route was perfect, if only if he remains healthy and safe till his last breath, or else, he would end up being nothing, having loads of money but seen nothing. B seems wiser here but not when he sees someone travelling, but also generating money at the same time from his shoplots and business.
This is what people are facing right now, to stick to the old traditional way or to be brave enough to live in your own way?
Mine? is yet to be discovered.

KAY, i am sleepy enough.....ciao and nite everyone.
p/s: goodluck my dearies! <3 p="" yolo="">